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HEY, STACEY!
I took this picture for you.



Nougatocity \nü-gat-ä-si-tE\ (noun).
A heightened yet fleeting state of accomplishment that makes you realize how unbelievably unmotivated you normally are.

Hm, so I'm up and out of the shower. Yesterday was pretty cool. Man, I love the fuck out of my family. I miss them with every blood vessel in my heart. It was great seeing the family I hadn't seen in years. They all know me as the "baby" of the family, but when they see how big I've gotten, it's always a big shock. It was truly a beautiful event to attended. Celebrating the life of a great woman who's been more than what she has to be to anyone. My grandmother has extended her open arms and home to anyone in need. Eighty years, man. I'm proud of her.

So, After that I went to the studio and did a verse. I found out that I have a show tonight. Eh, whatever? I'm not really excited about it because we're performing a song that's not even my style of music. I don't even like this song. I'm too fuckin' lyrical for this bullshit ass song. Niggas, buggin' - for real though. The verse I'm spitting on this song is over four years old. I wrote that shit as probably one of my first raps ever. I don't care about that verse, or really care about that song. It has a catchy part, but other than that - the rest stands against anything that I stand for as an artist. Ugh, man I need new "rap friends". I'm tired of rappin' about dances, gettin' money, fuckin' hoes, sellin' drugs, and being a 'gangster'. Niggas need to elevate, real talk. This is why I'm a solo artist.

I put me before y'all. You call it self centered, I call it being smart.

Anyway, after I got back from the studio I had to worst headache ever. I got home, signed on yahoo and went to lay down. I was expecting Juelz to call me, but instead she sends me a text saying that she isn't going to call me because 'I'm in pain.' Man, fuck that. I need her to be a little more aggressive. I didn't call her because that kind of made me mad. I guess I'm not used to dealing with nice girls. If it's anyone I wanted to talk to last night, it would have been her. I think she needs to get it through her head that I WANT her to call me at 4am to wake me up because she can't sleep. I wish she would stop being overly considerate. If I say my phone is open to her, it's open to her - no if's, and's, but's, or maybe's. I sat there and waited for her to call, but she didn't. China called though and we talked for a minute. I ended up dozing off on her and then I just told her I was going to go to sleep. I turned my phone on silent, rolled over, and took my ass to sleep. I didn't even care if she would call or wouldn't anymore. I'm not about to force someone to call me - I'm good. Being considerate or not, maybe I'm just being selfish. Fuck it, I'll be selfish.

MOVING ON.

I just checked my phone and I have texts from her. I guess I'll call her when I finish blogging. So, yea about tonight. Watch it be some run down ass party, full of immature ass niggas. I'm really not feeling that. I just called this nigga Dub and his phone is off. The fuck? Nigga how you gone do a show and no one has rehearsed their verses together or done anything together. That shit is fucking stupid. Like I said, I'm not really feeling the song anyway - so I have no problem with not even going to the show, seriously.

Oh yea, my phone came yesterday. I have to get everything switched over to this sim card tomorrow. It's a 3G card, so everything is different. I had a 3G phone before, but I lost the sim card. Oops, my bad? The phone is cool though. I played with it before at the store, lol! Now it's on to getting my Wing! Boss down, bitches. As soon as I get that, it's lights out for ho ass niggers. I'm steppin' on anybody's head. I should just steal China's, low-key though.

Alright, yo. I'm about to get off this computer and go wake Juelz up, if she already isn't up. I'll be back tonight to tell y'all all about this stupid ass show. Eh, I have to go get my drug test tomorrow too. Yea, and my cousin's havin' a bbq for his birthday tomorrow. I'ma stick my head through that bitch and what not.

Anyway, holla.