When you realize that you control your emotions and how you feel for the day, then you will know that ultimately you make yourself happy. It's hard to think positive these days, but once you gain a grip on it - the feeling is awesome. I don't know, maybe it's like a sudden release of dopamine. Hey, at least it's not crack! Lol, that's hilarious. I kind of love my layout now. That was random and unrelated to this paragraph. Back on the topic at hand: I'm really trying to remain positive. Petty things and people will not ruin that. I woke up with nothing more than a hunger pain and I plan to stay that way for the rest of the day.

You know what's the hardest thing about being positive? It's the negative people you're surrounded by. No matter how chipper and pleasant you try to be, they always have some kind of weight on their chest that's let out through their tone of voice and body language. I'm sure some of you deal with these people, just like I do. I may even be that person to you. The best thing you can do is not let that get to you. Try what you can to bring them out of their slump, but know that you can't help everyone. Yesterday, I realized that tomorrow is definitely another day. I don't give up on anyone, but if my best doesn't affect you then I can't give anymore. We all have limits, you know? Just give that person their space and then if it's in your heart, try again to alleviate them of whatever they're holding on to; especially if it's your significant other. I haven't really been that open about my relationship in the past few months, but I can say that she holds a mean grudge whether she'll admit it or not. Her voice and body language says it all. I've learned to just remain as happy as I can through that. Hopefully it's contagious. Lol, who knows?

I've been in the pursuit of love, money, and happiness for a long while. I'm learning the proper steps to take so that I'll be able to check each one of them off of my list. Money seems like the easiest thing to come by once you have a plan. Money doesn't by love or happiness though. In all honesty, I wouldn't know about the happiness thing. I kind of think money could buy me happiness. If I have enough money to buy everything that I want and need and take every trip I'd like to, then I'm happy. Simple things make me happy. Imagine what bigger things would do? Money could buy me every ounce of happiness I could ever desire. I'd buy you happiness too. I love spending money. Line up and be my gold digging friends.

I wish I still smoked. God, that was a fun time. Lol, I have so many crazy memories around being high. When it happened, it wasn't good at all but when you think back on it - it's hilarious. I need to make some great sober memories. The only memories I have of being sober are from being younger. Everything that happened that's worth talking about in my adult life happened while I was high. What does that tell you about me and my character? Terrible person. Sike, nigga! Chill out.

Oh, while this is on my chest. Yes, I'm going to blog about you. I'm also going to blog about anyone else who has a problem. I'm definitely disappointed by all of the things coming back to me about what people have to say about me. I'm not angry by a long shot, just disappointed. I'm moreso let down by you, Brooke. I would presume you're joking - but who knows? We haven't spoken in a while. Some of the things said seem more serious than playful, though. Especially if they're not said to me. I'm never around to hear or see what's said. I don't hold any validity to what people tell me until it all starts sounding alike. I would definitely like to speak to you about it, but I hear you have a new screen name and when I texted you I didn't get a reply. Get at me when you get a chance. Okay, thanks.

All of you now have my permission to post this in your threads and whatnot.