I think I'm first, but surely finish last.

Man, this song. Ah, it just makes so much sense. If only you knew me, you'd really understand this song. Just listen along as I blog. I know it's kind of hard to really listen and read, so stop reading and just listen until the guitars of Stingy kicks on. Eh, I like Stingy, but it gets so annoying. I can only listen to it once or twice. Anyway, back to Day 'N' Nite. Ace put me on to that song. At first, I just like the melody, but recently I've really listen to it and I can really relate to it. It sounds just like me. It's weird. The lonely loner.

I haven't blogged in a few days, I know. I just haven't been in the mood to type. I guess I'll talk to y'all right now. I'm kind of, I don't know. I just know I don't feel good. I didn't sleep good, either. That's something different. Last night was so long, really. My fucking ... I forgot what I was about to say, lol. I got caught up in this Jay-Z verse on the Put On remix. Anyway, last night. Sosososo long. I really wasn't prepared for it. I thought things would have been fine and dandy but they weren't. I think it took so much out of me. So now, I'm just eh?

You know, I always figured that I was damned near the best thing to happen to someone. These days I feel that - not so much. Like, I feel like such a fuck up. You couldn't possibly know where I'm coming from because I don't even know how to say it. I don't expect you to understand, though. What's a person like me to do? I can't do nothing. That's not in my character. Maybe nothing is the best option. You know? Just roll with the punches I guess.

Day and night, the lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night.

You see? I usually blog at night and free my mind then. Doesn't it just make so much sense to you? I mean, ugh! You just have to know where I'm coming from when you hear this song. It just makes perfect sense. I think I've found the meaning of my life in this song, lol. Just listen to the song again and you'll probably get it.

This seems like it's going to be another long weekend. My back has been killing and and the rest of my body is giving me equal problems. Eh, hold on. I really need to get rid of this Stingy song. It's starting to bother me. I don't know why it annoys me so much.

Alright, I put Bittersweet as the second song because it makes sense right now too. See what I want so much shouldn't hurt so bad. Now this black and milllldd is going to be the death of me. Ah, I have one. I want to smoke it, but I'm not. The thought sounds so nice. I remember those days when I'd go kill my lungs. Lol, if I'm going to die - I'd rather choose my death. Like, lung cancer?! Here I come. You're the suckers. You don't know how you're going to die. I knew for sure I'd be lung cancer. I had control over my life. Now I stopped smoking. Eh? There goes my control, lol!

I guess it's bittersweet poetry.