Alright, see you guys now I love doing my own interpretations of songs that I feel relate to my life. Tonight, I'm going to do Lyfe Jennings - Stingy. This song is a beautiful piece of music and it takes someone who goes through this to fully understand what he's saying. So, I'll start off with the lyrics. You can listen along with the playlist as you read.

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Now, let's begin. Do you know the feeling of yearning for the presence of that person you're with? You want to be the person they wake up to and the person they sleep with. Sometimes it seems as if the rest of the world has more interaction with your significant other. Now, I know this is the new era and that there are a lot of long distance relationships. Especially in the case of those type of relationships. You don't have the privilege to hold her at night or the opportunity to kiss her in the morning. Now you feel yourself becoming stingy.

Take a moment to listen to the hook. This is such a poetic piece. Lyfe begins to explain how he'll be her everything. She doesn't have to rely on anything else in this world to survive but him. He'll be her crutch when she needs it and her air when she can't breathe. Do you know that complete feeling of selflessness? I don't think you do. It's ironic, he doesn't want to share her with anything, but he's willing to share his everything with her. I get more than a sense of love from this song. It's a sense of protection. Those other things have the power to manipulate and hurt you, but trust me - I'm here. Lean on me when you can't go on.

The second verse is where he displays his dependency on her presence and having her near him. I can relate to this more than any other song that's in my iPod right now. This exact part of the song. Where he blames the necessity things that she has in life for her absence. This is when the thought of your own stinginess takes it's course and now everything that comes about provokes it's own impact to you and your connection with her. It's not a jealousy, more of an intense need for this person. Everything has it's own ulterior motive and you can sense it. You know that you're the only pure thing to come about for her and you take the best pride in that.

Okay, okay, okay here is where it gets heavy. The bridge of the song. With everything you go through about in the day, you wash that away from you. This is a simple metaphor to me. With everything you go through in your day, all of the stress, all of the disappointments, all of the hectic situations - you rid yourself of that before you interact with her. You want the moments you share to be as pure as anything you can offer her. This is where you cast away all of your worries and you know that she will make things better just as you make them for her.

Rule number 1, I'm stingy. My last blog may have been misleading to a few of you. I'm not upset with her because she sleeps. I'm upset because now I'm stingy and I can't help it. I want her, and her only. I have to share her with everything, including sleep. I will be her rest when she's tired. I will be the air that rushes into her lungs every time she yawns. Am I wrong for wanting to be her everything? The blog last night was nothing more than me contemplating on how stingy I really am. I know that I have to share her and I'm fine with that. I am not insensitive to her schedule. I know how hard it is to manage your life and a companion, trust me. I do not fault her for this. She's an amazing woman and I'm blessed to have her in my life. I'm just dependent upon her now. I'm not ashamed to admit it, either.

I'm stingy.