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You hear the first song on my blog? Okay, read along as you listen. I'm going to talk about this song for a bit. Eh, like music is wonderful. That's such a beautiful song. I'd love to be able to put something together like this. Anyway, read as he sings.

She’s got those eyes, those eyes
That’ll see right through you
When she leaves that night
I wanna leave, with her too
And she’s on my mind
And I go all the time
When we touch I go weak
And I can hardly speak
And I hope that she thinks about me
'Cause I’m always thinking of her

I just wanna hold her hand, be her man
I wanna know if she’d take a chance
'Cause I still have not revealed it
'Cause I still get the feelin'
That lovin' her is a game I’ll always lose
I got the brown eyed blues

It’s a shame I didn’t meet her before
'Cause now I wanna see her more than I should
It’s kinda cheap when she’s always on my mind
And I’d see her all the time if I could
And I hope that she cares about me
'Cause I know that I care for her

I just wanna hold her hand, be her man
I wanna know if she’d take a chance
'Cause I still have not revealed it
'Cause I still get the feelin'
That lovin' her is a game I’ll always lose
I got the brown eyed blues

I don’t wanna be with anybody else
She makes me take a good look at myself
She brings out the best in me
She doesn’t feel any less of me
When I do the wrong things
She loves me for me and I can’t explain

Oh be her man
I wanna know
'Cause I still have not revealed it
'Cause I still get the feelin'
That lovin' her is a game I’ll always lose
I got the brown eyed blues

I just wanna hold her hand, be her man
I wanna know if she’d take a chance
'Cause I still have not revealed it
'Cause I still get the feelin'
That lovin' her is a game I’ll always lose
I got the brown eyed blues

Now, I normally never blog in the day, but I think I want to talk about this song. It's such a great piece of music. The emotion is crazy in this song. I don't think you would really understand it unless you've been through what he's talking about or if you're currently going through it. Think deeper into the song and you'll get a clear meaning.

Do you know how it feels to not want to sit in the house when someone you care for leaves? It's like sitting there in the most miserable state because you can't do anything but think about that person. It's not exactly being sad, but it's not a good feeling to miss someone. I mean, genuinely miss someone. It's the feeling of withdrawal. When you want that great feeling and can't have it. I'm sure we've all wanted something in life and it sucked because you weren't able to obtain it. You know, sitting there thinking about that person and hoping that you're not doing it all in vain. We are never able to read a person's mind, but it would be so good to know for sure that when you're thinking about that person that they're thinking about you.

The chorus is the key. Listen to it, like seriously listen. You know when you really want to be with someone? Like yearn to share that connection with them. The feeling of an honest relationship. You want that so bad; although at the same time you can't shake your own insecurities. You think that this person may hurt you in the long run. You don't want to love them because they may not love you back. You haven't even told them that you love them, and that's what complicates things. It's only complicated to you, because you're trying to put the pieces together yourself. You just hope that the feel exactly the same. You want to know if they'll take the chance with you, but you're just a little hesitant to make the advancement.

Now you need this person. Before it was so easy to let go of them. You find yourself dependent on this person's phone call or being around this person. It's funny, because now you want to spend every waking moment with them. You can't say much about it, because it's kind of 'crazy' in your mind. So instead, you just try to lay off and fight it yourself. Now you're kind of playing yourself. You still want to approach them in a different manner, because you really don't know.

Damn, you can't help but to care for this person because now they're so understanding. You know? You're a complete fuck up, but they still care for you. As much as you pull away, as many mistakes as you make, they still love you for you. It's hard to accept that someone could have that type of unconditional feeling for you. YOU, of all people. Then you start drown in your insecurities again. You have the brown eyed blues because you're afraid of being hurt. You've been through so much, and maybe you just care a little too much right now. You play yourself short, trying to mask everything you have.

It's up to you, though. Do you speak on it or do you let it ride? Maybe the risk is worth it. So what if you take this risk and this person becomes the love of your life? What if you don't take that risk and they're meant to be the love of your life? It's so many unanswered questions you have, but it's up to you to find the answers. This is where you take the chance in asking this person to take a chance with you. I mean, what do you have to lose? As cliche as it is; if you fall of your horse, get back up and keep riding.