Tuesday, June 10, 2008

126.

Hmm, fried chicken - fly vixen.
Give me heart disease, but I need you in my kitchen.
You're a bird, but you ain't no ki.
Got wings but you can't fly away from me.

Man, I'm so amped about this fucking Nas album, it's crazy. I haven't felt like this over an album since when Kingdom Come was getting ready to drop. Son, I'm like happy-happy. Aren't you? If you're not fucking with Nas, you might as well get the fuck off my blog then. Ion' fuck with you like that, nigga. If you just got up on Nas with Hip-Hop Is Dead, then suck a dick. If you weren't up on Nas when Halftime dropped - then you're gay. All of you better know what Halftime is. I hated Nas for a bit, only because I'm a Jay-Z stan, but Nas is still that nigga.

So, how's life? You're good? That's good. I bet you're not as good as me, though. See, I've learned to say fuck it and pretty much do me. The air seems so much fresher and even though it's been raining, my skies seem so much brighter. See, I'm taking two steps forward. They're faith steps, but my steps will be forward from now on. I refuse to get knocked back. If my foot falls through on any of these steps - I'll just start over again from that exact spot. I'm not looking back at anything or anyone. If you're not here now, please consider yourself exiled and vanquished from all aspects of I, Me, & Jay.

Maybe I should tell a joke? Maybe I should make you all laugh. You know? That's the old Jay, right? I'm trying to get back into that area of my life. So, what did the bird say to the television? Okay, that was lame - because I don't even know. I always try to tell a joke like that and I can never figure out anything they should say. Okay, one more. Why did the pillow case cross the road? Okay, okay, okay - I don't know anything for that one either. Sue me. I'm not a "joke-type" funny person. You'd just have to catch me in the mood. Lol, I'm more of a 'stupid' funny. On some, hold up - did this nigga just say that?! type shit. You underfuckingdigdoecuz?

What if I got into selling drugs, again? That question hit me today. Like, with what I know now, would I make more money? I don't think I could look in the mirror if I sold drugs now. I mean, I've held weight. Have you done drugs? Which ones? You've ever seen a ki of coke? You've ever broken down a ki and decided that it would be suicide to sell it? See, you don't understand the mind of a person who's done it or been through it. Sometimes a brick would set me good in life. You know, sometimes a kilo would get me where I need. So, with a drug - what do you do? Sell it or take it? I want the high, but I don't want the after affects of coming off the drug. You've ever seen a fiend in withdrawal? I don't want to withdraw. I just want the high. This might not make sense to you and you may look at me differently, but take a drug. Sell it or take it, and see how you feel.

Fuck, I want this Nas album now.


Thanks for the videos, Brooke.

4 comments:

Lizzy said...

GAH!
ME TOO!

I've been downloading all the tracks that's been leaked like crazy.

:D

The Motivated Mama said...

Okay that was so tight. I just came from reading The Million Tear March, that is something serious. And I enjoyed this post as well. Unfortunately I haven't even heard anything on the Nas album yet so I'll have to look into it. But on the note of the selling drugs, that was deep and it was real. I'm not going to put anyones business out there that I know but after I read this it definitely had me thinking about what they probably deal with since they were involved in it. I wonder if they would go back to that life but I highly doubt they would. At least they admit to thinking about it. I guess in its own way selling drugs is an addiction. I'm glad you can control it. And I'm even more so glad that you're not involved in it anymore. It takes a man to realize that he doesn't need that bitter lifestyle, yes the money is good but the probability of getting caught up or caught out isn't too low.

Chicky Love! said...

I'm super excited about the album coming out too, and i know you go through a lot but your one of the strongest people I've ever spoke to in my life, you very intimidating because your so smart i think thats why i don't talk to you much because you intimidate me, and your jokes are super silly, you weirdo lol, and about the drugs don't go back to do that its not worth it I've seen so many people ruin there lives, one of my best friends are doing hard jail time because he wanted to be a "king" and sell everything he got his hands and watching him and the people around do the drugs was scary he use to snort lines in front of me it was frighting it really was i wouldn't want to see you go down that road, even tho we don't talk much i do care and i want you to be okay.

Chmy said...

Haha, no Nas CD for yooooou.
=p


The people above me make me feel like I should be typing more.

Oh Well.

;)