Hmph, forgive me for thinking this time was different. Ramonia, you've done well. You've completely made it impossible for me to even entertain the idea of being with someone. Shorty, I'm quite over you, but you still affect me. I thank you though, because I'm more focused with life because of you. I imagine everything that I was ready to give up for you, and I'm glad I didn't. I'm proud of what I have and I've accepted the things that I will not have. I'm still young, yes, but there is so much going on with me that I don't have room for much more. I figured I wanted to take my place back in the dating world as a serious companion, but I don't want it anymore. I can't help but to see what always goes wrong in a repeating cycle. My mother always told me, if everyone says it, there is some truth in it.
Figured I'd stop and entertain the idea of being with someone, it was cool for all of two weeks. She's tripping about the same shit everyone else trips about. I don't know, maybe it's just me. As much as she says that I'm not ready, I can honestly say that she's not ready for someone like me. It's not like I didn't tell her beforehand about what she was dealing with. She knows I have a bad attitude, she knows I'm nonchalant, she knows I'm difficult. So please tell me why it's something new? I don't care, really. I tried to be the best I could, but Jay is still the bad guy - right? My bad, bro. I'll accept my position in this as being the "fuck up". If that's what makes you sleep well at night, I'll be that. I did want to try something with you, but you're done - so fuck it. I'll be damned if I beg you to do anything. I've been feeling alone for this long, I can deal with it longer. I take full responsibility for us not working. How does that Akon song go? You can put the blame on me. I figured you were one worth fighting for, but why fight for someone who isn't going to fight for me? You gave up this easily, so why should I keep going to prove myself? This would only be considered the beginning - but you've given up already, so I'll leave it at that. If you can't be there when things are like this - who knows if it'll get worse in the relationship? You're a good person, sweetheart and a great friend. You're not not ready to deal with someone like me. I still feel for you, but we're at a stagnant point. I don't know what to say to you. Don't push me to the point where I don't care about us anymore, because as much as I try to fight it - if I'm there, I won't come back from it. I'd rather not go to that point with you.
Moving on, my cousin and I talked about a lot of shit. We're really about to get this GRAM Game shit going. This year we have so many projects ready to drop. As I type this, I'm working on my song for Board of Directors which is slated to drop February 5th, 2008. Be on the look out for that! Man, I'm so excited about that. Music never lets me down.
YOUCANPUTTHEBLAMEONME.
Outro.
Figured I'd stop and entertain the idea of being with someone, it was cool for all of two weeks. She's tripping about the same shit everyone else trips about. I don't know, maybe it's just me. As much as she says that I'm not ready, I can honestly say that she's not ready for someone like me. It's not like I didn't tell her beforehand about what she was dealing with. She knows I have a bad attitude, she knows I'm nonchalant, she knows I'm difficult. So please tell me why it's something new? I don't care, really. I tried to be the best I could, but Jay is still the bad guy - right? My bad, bro. I'll accept my position in this as being the "fuck up". If that's what makes you sleep well at night, I'll be that. I did want to try something with you, but you're done - so fuck it. I'll be damned if I beg you to do anything. I've been feeling alone for this long, I can deal with it longer. I take full responsibility for us not working. How does that Akon song go? You can put the blame on me. I figured you were one worth fighting for, but why fight for someone who isn't going to fight for me? You gave up this easily, so why should I keep going to prove myself? This would only be considered the beginning - but you've given up already, so I'll leave it at that. If you can't be there when things are like this - who knows if it'll get worse in the relationship? You're a good person, sweetheart and a great friend. You're not not ready to deal with someone like me. I still feel for you, but we're at a stagnant point. I don't know what to say to you. Don't push me to the point where I don't care about us anymore, because as much as I try to fight it - if I'm there, I won't come back from it. I'd rather not go to that point with you.
Moving on, my cousin and I talked about a lot of shit. We're really about to get this GRAM Game shit going. This year we have so many projects ready to drop. As I type this, I'm working on my song for Board of Directors which is slated to drop February 5th, 2008. Be on the look out for that! Man, I'm so excited about that. Music never lets me down.
YOUCANPUTTHEBLAMEONME.
Outro.
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